I think i’m actually giving up on you.
It feels like death.
I hate hearing about you. I miss you too much.
#the great ache
I feel like ripping out my soul. For those who feel things on such a deep and spiritual level such as I, that’s a really big deal. The soul is the most important part of your being. Its your spirit and core. All your love. I want to feel nothing. I want to be pure evil and do only bad wrong terrible things and not worry or feel guilt. I don’t want to feel the great ache any longer. I don’t think I can bare it. I think this time I am not stronger than the storm that swells inside me. I don’t want to feel you.